we watched "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" last night. sure took long enough, eh? what a great movie. makes you realize that the fights you have in a relationship aren't nearly as bad as the rest of the relationship is wonderful. plus, very clever usage of hair dye as a plot device.

i watched the movie "gummo" the night before. holy crap. that has to be one of the most disturbing films i've ever seen, even more disturbing than, say, "superstar" with molly shannon. maybe i didn't take away what i was supposed to take away from "gummo," but the whole experience left me grateful that i don't live in some hick town with a bunch of retarded assholes. not that every hick town is filled with retarded assholes, but, let me tell you, this movie did nothing for the stereotype. the real residents of xenia, ohio are surely up in arms over this movie.

i still have "scotland, pa" to watch in the next couple of days. i've never read "macbeth," so i wonder if i'll "get" this movie, all the clever references and jokes. in high school, we read "hamlet," "julius caesar," and "othello." then the folks at college made me read "hamlet" again. "hamlet," i can handle. it was when they made me read "the scarlet letter" again that i lost it. i fucking hate that book. who takes three pages to describe a tree?

i'm pounding away a story that i am happy with, a complete farce and parody and joke involving christopher-pike-like storylines. i realize that this is what i am good at- making fun of things. so why do i try so hard to be serious and deep and meaningful? what's the point of writing if it's not any fun? and i am having some fun- ain't that grand?

i will make it my life goal to mock every genre.