i want...

...to be admired for creating awesome works of art.

...for chris to always look at me they way he did the night he proposed, right before i snapped at him, "what are you looking at?"

...to be enclosed in a bubble with my loved ones, impermeable to harm.

...to fix every mistake i have made, right every wrong i have done.

...my life to be punctuated by greeting cards that state, "congratulations!" for various jobs well done and milestones reached.

...a heart that is pure and good.

...babies and a warm home and the kind of family that you only see in cereal and juice commercials.

...to be remembered fondly by those that i don't see anymore.

...the ease and grace of those with much more confidence than myself.

...a big wedding, even though i say that i do not, with every friend that i have ever had in attendance. i want to dance with my father and have my grandfather come back to life for that one day so he can be there, too.

...to remain alarmingly healthy, with chris alarmingly healthy as well.

...my sister to get everything in life she deserves.

...to watch the evening news without seeing a single destructive act by either nature or other humans. badger attacks, maybe, as that is just how badgers are.

...a year to see the world.

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